I have dreams, big dreams to travel the world and in my own way fight the injustice called racism. Money, though admittedly I do lack, isn’t holding me back. Neither is the fact that I can only speak English, as you can always learn a language on the go. The thing that is holding me back is fear. Fear of the unknown. What if I absolutely hate it in another country? What if what I set out to do ultimately fails? The biggie for me is what if I do experience unprecedented racism? As much as I try to be subjective with this issue, I can’t ignore the fact that my skin colour will ultimately draw attention to fairly racial homogenous countries in Europe. I don’t think I am built (or maybe ready) for handling situations whereby I have to defend myself due to the colour of my skin.
These are all ‘what ifs’, but they do cloud my mind and are unfortunately holding me back. As 2010 is drawing to a close, I hope that for 2011 I will overcome these fears and actually do live out my dreams.
Peace
Just do it. You might hate it, you might love it, but you won't find out until you go. In the least you will learn something. You don't know how you will react to certain situations until you put yourself out there. Goodluck.
ReplyDeleteWow, you seem to have read my mind with this post b/c I've already started saving for my travels but I've found that I'm definitely afraid of leaving my comfort zone. But that's going to have to change soon though.
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